20 day semester = Maymester

There's this thing called Maymester. Three weeks of class. Most people take one class. I plan on keeping myself busy by taking two. Translation. Class for six hours a day (9-3:30 with a 30 minute lunch break), five days a week for 15 days. That means 21 days from now, I will be done with school for the summer. The more I hear about graduations, the more I want to be walking across that stage. I still have a year and a half before I'm even close to reaching that goal.

All that aside, I'm both excited, nervous, and completely dreading the next 21 days. I'm really excited about my classes...I think they are going to be really interesting and a lot of fun. And then I'm having the typical Sunday night dreading classes on Monday. Not to mention I'm going to be in class for five days a week instead of just four. I have a feeling there will be lots of reading, but I think it's going to be interesting so maybe it won't be so bad. I'm regretting telling Mrs. Russ they can crash in my room during state. I'm wondering how the heck I'm going to get all the work done that I'm going to have to do and keep my self entertained and sane. Moreover, for the next 21 days, it is doubtful I'm going to get to see Jeremy. Not only not being able to stay at his house, or him at mine, but we are talking, hardly even seeing each other for a few minutes to talk, hug, or kiss. I know last year I went months without seeing him but it's been quite a while since that happened.

I'm also anxious about this summer. As soon as Jeremy gets a car, he's going to be working two jobs to help make the house payments. I love that because it means that much sooner we would be able to move in together, but it also means that there will be that much less time that we will have to spend together. In some ways, it makes me think I should take the opportunity to get another job in addition to camp just to have some extra income. I mean I'm going to be missing a lot of work. What I should do is get my name out there for babysitting, because then at least I could work flexible hours and could watch TV. I dunno...things are just so up in the air right now.

I just feel very scattered and that's really all I know to say right now. Tomorrow will be the beginning of the focusing. But for now, i can only hope that I can just go to sleep tonight.